The Holy Fire

There's a famous teaching about how the way to grow is to be like a seed. Seeds first have to rot before they produce fruit. So too, our mistakes cause the destruction of ourselves and the Beit Hamikdash (Hashem's House), but it is only through that destruction, that rotting as a result of our mistakes, that we will grow. The basis for the teaching is that the seed has no idea what amazing potential it has. If someone would've told the seed it would turn into an oak or a daisy, it would just be too much to handle.

So too us. We need to connect so much to Hashem, to the mitzvot, and to our holy brothers and sisters, but sometimes we reach a point where the ultimate goal just isn't so amazing. The future looks bleak and we can't seem to get motivated to serve Hashem. Because of our inability to get it, because we walk down Ben Yehuda and don't see the street Moshiach will soon walk down, because we don't see the returning of Hashem's presence to Zion happening through every person on every street corner, because it's just too much for us to handle, we choose to rot. Our soul knows that through these mistakes come consequences and eventually, after much pain and suffering, we grow. Our soul might even think this is the only way to come closer; first destruction, since there's nowhere else to go, then, at long last, redemption.

It's a very sweet torah, but it's getting old. All throughout Jewish history, we try to get closer to Hashem by rotting. We go against the Torah, we suffer exile, pogroms, Aushwitz, bombings, and baruch Hashem, we learn from our mistakes and grow closer to Hashem. I'm sick of it. We need a new way. Today. We need new eyes. We need the light of Chanuka to shine so deep, to light the way, to show us how God is so good, the world is so good, everything is pointing to Mashiach and it's getting better all the time. We have to see, to know, how much potential each of us has to fix ourselves and the world. If a seed can become a rose, then each of us . . .

It's the way of the Aish Kodesh, the Holy Fire. It's possible to get higher and higher, and not to fall down. All it takes is the eyes to see that there are no limits, there are no walls. If we can see it, imagine it, and be open to it, then there is no need for destruction. A love which only gets higher, a connection which only get deeper. It's possible, it really is. I bless with the eyes to see and the hearts to understand.

(5761)

Yossi Colish

Yossi is a former student of Yeshivat Bat Ayin.

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