49 Days and Still Not Ready?

"On the third new moon after the Israelites had gone forth from the land of Egypt, on that very day, they entered the wilderness of Sinai" Shemot 19:1
The above is the introductory verse to the episode in the Torah that is the giving of the Ten Commandments. Rashi comments on the fact that the text emphasizes, seemingly extraneously, that they arrived 'on that very day'; "it would have been unnecessary to write 'on that very day' were it not for the fact that the Torah wishes to teach us that words of Torah should have a newness to you, as though you had received them on that very day".
Newness in Torah is not something to take lightly. Of course, one can always make things up, but to have a legitimately new approach to Torah, one must be involved in a process and a framework.
Although the Torah does not tell us specifically on which day G-d was revealed at Sinai, it does tell us that if we count the Omer, then in fifty days from Pesach we will arrive at a holiday called Shavuot. This holiday, the Talmud tells us, is a commemoration of G-d's giving the Torah at Sinai.
The Torah has given us a relative time-frame for arriving at the giving/receiving of the Torah. Every individual must count for him/herself so as to prepare for the newness that is coming. But what if I didn't count? How then can I be ready to receive G-d's word? To acccomodate such a situation, the Torah delineates a second preparatory process which we go through - the 3 days of separation and purification preceding Matan Torah described in Chapter 19. These three days are a gift from HaShem - it is as though the Holy One is saying - "I know, I know - sometimes it is hard to maintain momentum and direction for 49 days - I'll tell you what - here is another chance."
Yet, there is another, even bigger secret to receiving the Torah. Certainly, God really wants us to receive the Torah, that is why He gave us two chances to prepare ourselves - by counting the Omer, and by dedication three days to separation and purity. But what if I am standing here, and it is five minutes before Shavuot and I am saying to myself, "Who am I? Why should I get the Torah?"
Rebbe Yisrael, the Maggid of Koznitz, teaches us something as beautiful as it is astonishing: the astronomical sign for the month of Sivan (this month), The Twins (Gemini), represent Am Yisrael and HaShem. HaShem is telling us, "come really close, I want to tell you something very special, I want to talk to you as if you are my brother." The Rebbe says that while it is well-known that when one twin is in pain the other can feel it, the same is true of real happiness.
O.K., we've received thd Torah because G-d loves me so much, but what about newness, didn't I miss out on all the preparations for newness? So here is the final secret: the newness is out there every day. G-d wants so much that we should have newness that he gives us a process called "mitzot". Doing the mitzvot and acting on HaShem's word is a pathway built into the life of a Jew enables us every day to experience Torah as new and HaShem as a sweet loved one whispering in our ear. Listen carefully!