Little Steps in a Bigger World

I can only hope that with this tightness in my chest I'll remember a time when I sat alone in a dark room: I could feel my mouth forming words to HaShem, and it seemed like the only thing moving in the world. "Please, G-d, give me the words. Let me know what to say to You, to open my heart and make it right."
And more and more I was actually speaking to Someone, and He was so close. He was blowing kisses to me on the wind outside, making grass grow, creating the world and the stars, and He was listening to me. It was too beautiful - how could I even handle it? "I want so much to love Your world, to attach to it, to give myself to it. Yes! because this is right, finally something so right. And so what can I do to be worthy to take part in a creation so huge it makes my heart break?" Only one little thing at a time. One little mitzvah. Just one little thing at a time to keep Him close, one more way to give myself to His world.
Time must have passed, because I realized that my face was smiling and my cheeks were wet. And when I walked back to the Beit Midrash, my heart had opened its tightness into a bigger world, because every little step I took was a step on His way.