The Blessing of Structure to Reach Commitment

We have just entered a cycle of time in the Jewish calendar for which I'm particularly grateful: Purim through Shavuoth. During this time of year, I always thank Hashem for giving us some structure, some scaffolding, some framework, to help us become fully rooted in the calendar, in ourselves, and in the Jewish people. In these months, whenever I get off track or confused, I have something tangible and active to bring me back to myself and where I'm located in time and place. For me, these months, and the holidays that are encompassed in them, provide a sort of map for tikkun (repair).
The time between Purim and Pesach is intense. I ran into someone a week ago who, in his words, was "still half in Purim". When I asked him how he was feeling, he said with a smile, "now we get to start cleaning". Purim can be a kind of cleansing for us as individuals and a spur to help us initiate the cleansing of our physical space that culminates in the search erev Pesach for chametz.
This is all preparation for getting closer to Hashem and Am Yisrael. When we receive our freedom as a people on Pesach, it is in order to become united with Hashem through the Torah on Shavuoth. It is said that Pesach is akin to the start of the engagement period between the Jewish People and Hashem. The parshiot of this time period assist us in doing the work to get us there.
Last week we read in the Torah about the sin of the golden calf. After the children of Yisrael created the golden calf, it is written, "Moshe stood at the gateway of the camp, and said, 'Who is for Hashem? Let them join me.'" (Shemoth/Exodus 32:26). The only ones who responded to this call were members of the tribe of Levi. They responded and dedicated themselves to Hashem even though it meant, in this case, killing three thousand men including friends and relatives. This is unimaginable to me but it is an affirmation, through any circumstance, of their commitment to Hashem. Before the marriage of Am Yisrael to Hashem, our people needed to go through some turmoil, growth, self-examination, and making of decisions.
B'zrat Hashem, Avi Rosenfeld and I are getting married in just more than one week. I feel that, through our marriage, I am not only committing myself to Avi and to our relationship, but also recommitting myself to Hashem and to my participation in Am Yisrael. Baruch Hashem, we have not needed to physically go through what Am Yisrael went through Ki Tissa, but the parashah does remind me of how much work I need to do, and that is humbling and can be overwhelming. I am grateful that we are now in this cycle between Purim and Pesach that provides some scaffolding to remind me of the cleansing and to support me in this work.
I hope that everyone has a great shabbos and feels supported in the ways they most need in order to feel fully a part of the Jewish People.